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26 March 2016 @ 01:23 pm
Books to read about Foster Care:

A Child's Journey Through Placement by Vera I Fahlberg

Shepherding a Child’s Heart by Tedd Tripp

The Happiest Toddler on the Block: How to Eliminate Tantrums and Raise a Patient, Respectful, and Cooperative One- to Four-Year-Old: by Harvey Karp

Building the Bonds of Attachment: Awakening Love in Deeply Troubled Children by Daniel A. Hughes

The Emotional Life of the Toddler

How to Talk So Kids Will Listen & Listen So Kids Will Talk

The Connected Child: Bring hope and healing to your adoptive family

Healing Traumatized Children: Navigating Recovery for Children with Turbulent Pasts

Parenting the Hurt Child: Helping Adoptive Families Heal and Grow

The Whole-Brain Child: 12 Revolutionary Strategies to Nurture Your Child's Developing Mind

Another Place at the Table by Kathy Harrison

The Boy Who Was Raised as a Dog: And Other Stories from a Child Psychiatrist's Notebook--What Traumatized Children Can Teach Us About Loss, Love, and Healing by Bruce Perry

Born for Love: Why Empathy Is Essential--and Endangered by Bruce D. Perry

How to Talk So Kids Will Listen & Listen So Kids Will Talk by Adele Faber

I Love You Rituals by Becky A. Bailey

The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma by Bessel van der Kolk M.D.

God and Jetfire: Confessions of a Birth Mother by Amy Seek

Reparenting the Child Who Hurts: A Guide to Healing Developmental Trauma and Attachments by Christine Gordon

Everything You Ever Wanted: A Memoir by Jillian Lauren
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26 March 2016 @ 12:33 pm

Is it possible to have a crush on a VOICE!? This mysterious man has captured my heart. The last line of the poem gets me every time.

Every Day You Play....
Every day you play with the light of the universe.
Subtle visitor, you arrive in the flower and the water,
You are more than this white head that I hold tightly
as a bunch of flowers, every day, between my hands.

You are like nobody since I love you.
Let me spread you out among yellow garlands.
Who writes your name in letters of smoke among the stars of the south?
Oh let me remember you as you were before you existed.

Suddenly the wind howls and bangs at my shut window.
The sky is a net crammed with shadowy fish.
Here all the winds let go sooner or later, all of them.
The rain takes off her clothes.

The birds go by, fleeing.
The wind. The wind.
I alone can contend against the power of men.
The storm whirls dark leaves
and turns loose all the boats that were moored last night to the sky.

You are here. Oh, you do not run away.
You will answer me to the last cry.
Curl round me as though you were frightened.
Even so, a strange shadow once ran through your eyes.

Now, now too, little one, you bring me honeysuckle,
and even your breasts smell of it.
While the sad wind goes slaughtering butterflies
I love you, and my happiness bites the plum of your mouth.

How you must have suffered getting accustomed to me,
my savage, solitary soul, my name that sends them all running.
So many times we have seen the morning star burn, kissing our eyes,
and over our heads the grey light unwinds in turning fans.

My words rained over you, stroking you.
A long time I have loved the sunned mother-of-pearl of your body.
Until I even believe that you own the universe.
I will bring you happy flowers from the mountains, bluebells, dark hazels, and rustic baskets of kisses.
I want to do with you what spring does with the cherry trees.

-Pablo Neruda
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08 February 2016 @ 12:37 am
so translucent like souls worn on sleeves
moonjellies ride the tides
fill the tight spaces of the harbour
with milky light

so lovely like flowers worn in girls’ hair
lilylovley and full of saltsap
floating under boats by ropes
easy as song

Jan Dean
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31 December 2015 @ 07:44 pm
Yes, it is the beginning of February but I am backdating this entry because it is my tradition every single year to post the list of movies and books that I saw and read during the year, bolding my favorites. I was sick around the holidays and didn't feel like doing this list and then I forgot about it in January but now I am finally going to post it! Those that I italicize were runners up but not favorites.

Movies I've Seen in 2015
Jersey Boys
Total Recall
If I Stay
The Age of Innocence
The Guilt Trip
The Villain
American Sniper
Paul Blart: Mall Cop 2
Cinderella (2015)
Amazing Grace (2007) (This was a rewatch)
Legally Blonde
Strange Magic
Big Eyes

Beyong the Headlines: The Amanda Knox Story
The Book of Life
The Theory of Everything
The Age of Adaline
Pitch Perfect 2
Hot Pursuit
Inside Out
The Longest Ride
Ted 2
Jurassic World
Project Almanac
Cloud Atlas
Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day
Labor Day
Far From the Madding Crowd
The Red Tent

Jupiter Asending
The Hunger Games: Mockingjay, Part 2
Star Wars: The Force Awakens

Me and Earl and the Dying Girl
Endless Love
Lost Boy: The Documentary
Maze Runner: Scorch Trials
War Room

Books I've Read in 2015
Alanna: The First Adventure (The Song of the Lioness, Book 1)
Where Have All the Good Men Gone?: Why So Many Christian Women Are Remaining Single by A.J. Kiesling
The Time Machine by H. G. Wells
Praying for Your Future Husband: Preparing Your Heart for His by Robin Jones Gunn
Soul Virgins: Redefining Single Sexuality by Doug Rosenau
For the Right Reasons: America's Favorite Bachelor on Faith, Love, Marriage, and Why Nice Guys Finish First by Sean Lowe
Old Yeller by Fred Gipson
Prepared for a Purpose: The Inspiring True Story of How One Woman Saved an Atlanta School Under Siege by Antoinette Tuff
Emotions: Can You Trust Them?: The Best-Selling Guide to Understanding and Managing Your Feelings of Anger, Guilt, Self-Awareness and Love by Dr. James Dobson
Your Half of the Apple by Gini Andrews
The One and Only Ivan by Katherine Applegate
The Selection by Kiera Cass
Finding the Love of Your Life: Ten Principles for Choosing the Right Marriage Partner by Neil Clark Warren
The Elite by Kiera Cass
Picking Up the Pieces: Recovering from Broken Relationships by Lou Priolo
The One by Kiera Cass
Perfect Ruin by Lauren DeStefano
The Heir by Kirea Cass
In Your Underwear: Life in Intentional Christian Community by Brian Sanders
Fear: Breaking Its Grip (Resources for Biblical Living) by Lou Priolo
Motives: Why Do I Do the Things I Do (Resources for Changing Lives) by Edward T. Welch
Clan of the Cave Bear by Jean M. Auel
Valley of the Horses by Jean M. Auel
P.S. I Still Love You by Jenny Han
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30 November 2015 @ 09:40 pm
I am not the only 5'3" 105 pound woman in the world...

According to this BMI chart, I am normal and healthy.

The clothing stores sell my size in the work-out clothes section but suddenly I don't exist when I look at the business suit section. What's up with that, Clothing Stores?!

I went to Banana Republic today, and here is a picture of me wearing a pair of really cute slacks in size zero, the smallest size they sell:

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30 November 2015 @ 12:54 pm
Sometimes I like to rant about things because it's soooo frustrating.

* More than two-thirds (68.8 percent) of adults are considered to be overweight or obese. More than one-third (35.7 percent) of adults are considered to be obese. More than 1 in 20 (6.3 percent) have extreme obesity.

* Most clothing does not come smaller than a small... and I am an extra small... sometimes, depending on the brand, an extra, extra small.

* The sad thing is that I am not an extra small person. I am a normal, healthy, average-height woman with an hourglass figure. Why should I have to be considered "extra, extra small" when everyone else is just extra, extra big? In the last ten years, the average weight for women has increased 11 pounds in America and in the last 50 years, the average waist size has DOUBLED. The average waist size in 1950 used to be the same waist size as me. That means there were many women who were smaller than me in order for my size to be the average.

* I know many women who are just as tiny as me and we are forced to shop in the juniors section and we miss out on all the beautiful clothing made for women our age because they don't make fashionable, adult clothing to fit our measurements.

* I have ranted about this before and I'm sorry for doing it again... I'm just frustrated that on days like today... Cyber Monday... when I could be buying gorgeous coats that are regularly $300 for only $3o right now on certain websites... but the smallest size they carry is "small" which, in my opinion, is NOT EVEN small. I would kill for a 36 inch bust. (Not literally, but you catch my drift.) 36 inches is several inches bigger than I am so how can that be small? I would be swimming in that, it would not hug my curves, and would make me look like a freaking stick in a marshmallow.

I go on Pinterest and I see all these super cute outfits but I can't seem to find them in the store when I go shopping....

Who are these people and where do they shop!?

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13 November 2015 @ 01:23 pm
Some Songs on My Work Out Playlist
*Push It
*A Quitter Never Wins
*Hurts So Good
*Gonna Make You Sweat
*Get Ready for This
*Sexy and I Know It
*No Limit
*Strike it Up
*Work B***ch
*Body Ache
*What a Feeling

Also, if you look like this, feel free to fill out the application to be my boyfriend, okay?
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20 July 2015 @ 01:26 pm
All the jobs I want require either: a Master’s level in Counseling, Therapy, or Psychology; or a Bachelor’s Degree in Social Services or Education. I knew I should have stuck with the Education degree... I am thinking of going back for counseling??? This is a pretty serious and expensive decision and I would appreciate any feedback you may have if you have one of these degrees. I am tired of living just below the poverty line... high enough that I don't qualify to receive food stamps but low enough that I struggle with buying groceries.

Also, if you receive grants or financial aid... how did you go about it? I don't know the first thing about getting grants. 
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28 June 2015 @ 07:06 pm
Many across the land are celebrating right now, but I have been quietly grieving for our nation. I have not yet spoken out about my confusing feelings on the historical day of June 26th, 2015, but I would like to now.

Last Friday, five Superior Court judges overturned 50 million American votes, invalidating the marriage laws of more than half the United States. As a libertarian, I am grieved that the states' decisions were overruled and the federal government took even more power into their hands when we should be limiting its power and giving the power to the people in the states. First of all, there is supposed to be a separation of church and state, but the state stuck its nose into the business of marriage, which was designed and consecrated by God on day six of Creation. Marriage is and always was a religious institution that the federal government had no business legislating, taxing, and redefining the definition of. The goal is always to limit the size, scope, and power of the government so that the people have the most freedom and liberty possible.

As a libertarian, I also believe in the equality of everyone as free individuals. This country was founded on Christian principles by devout, God-fearing forefathers who wanted to get away from the opression of King George, who, among many other atrocities, subjected his people to jurisdiction that was foreign to their constitution.

56 signers of the Declaration of Independence believed, "We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness."

As a Christian, I am grieved that our country legalized something that is against God's design. This ruling gives legal credence to something that is detestable in the eyes of God. I realize that given the direction of our culture, secular legislators won't always use biblical principles as a basis when deciding on civil law.

The government's job is to ensure justice is served for anyone who has disturbed the domestic tranquility or general welfare of the citizens. Under that definition, yes, I think it has the right to legislate morality. Everyone agrees that murder and rape are wrong because violence is immoral. We take the moral rule that violence hurts people and is therefore wrong, and we establish laws that protect people from getting hurt.

Is anyone besides the homosexuals themselves and any children they might adopt actually getting hurt? No. They will answer to the Supreme Judge of the World for their sins when they meet Him face to face.

An argument was made that the government might now force bakers, photographers, and ministers to participate in same-sex weddings. This hardly constitutes a reason to ban same-sex marriages because we shouldn't target the "innocent" who haven't actually violated anyone's first ammendment rights. We don't have to force our beliefs on them and they shouldn't force their beliefs on us, either. It's a free country after all. Another argument was made that now our public schools are going to be teaching that homosexual marriage is "right" and "good" and we don't want our children to be indocrinated with these lies. Our schools were already doing this and before that with teaching our children that evolution was true. Children should be taught solid biblical principles at home so that when you send them out into the world they're able to stand firm in their beliefs.

This decision has consequences. We may not see it right away, but in five years or less I guarentee we will start seeing some major changes in attitude and legislation in the United States and we're not going to like them.

In conclusion, I don't support or endorse homosexual marriage being forced on us by the federal government but like it or not, it is here, folks. Since we live in a broken world I'm not surprised, in fact, I am a little surprised it took this long to happen because it was only a matter of time. I remember only ten years ago the statistics of people in favor of gay marriage were reversed, 30% being for it while now it's 60%. This was bound to eventually happen. Jesus told us it would happen. God would not strive with men for long and eventually God gave them up to their vile passions (Romans 1:26–27). The world hates us because it hated Him first.

Our country has lost respect for God and His Word and they no longer believe the Bible is Truth. We cannot expect anything different. What we can expect is hostility toward Christianity because what's right is wrong and what's wrong is right in their eyes and we are bigots for thinking otherwise. The movement away from God has left me feeling more and more like a pilgrim in this foreign land and I'm so thankful my citizenship is in Heaven. The good news is that God is still sovereign and He is still sitting on the throne. The good news is that the gospel is a message of hope and redemption and we need to use it to reach out to this broken world rather than attacking and condemning it. Leave God to judge them... and focus on loving them and pointing them to Jesus.
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27 June 2015 @ 03:54 pm
“Relationships are a lot like dancing. You have to have real communication. Somebody’s gotta lead. You have to learn each other’s moves. You have to learn from each other's mistakes. You have to be in sync. You have to trust each other." -Betty Jo from The Bachelorette 2015: Episode 6

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06 June 2015 @ 04:29 pm

Oh, to see my name on the spine of a book on the shelf of a public library or Barnes and Noble, or better yet, in the hands of someone sitting on a checkered blanket at the park with a picnic lunch and the "baby" that I slaved over for years.


My dream job is to be Audrey Hepburn. When Samuel came over my house for the first time he saw the famous Breakfast at Tiffany's photograph on my dining room wall and all he could say was, "WOW. That's my future wife," to which I replied, "She's dead..." But let's be honest, who wouldn't want to be the most beautiful and talented movie star who ever existed???


It would be so much fun to see the ideas in my head come to life and be enjoyed.


Same reason I'd love to be an interior designer.



(Find broken down houses for really cheap, fix them up, sell them for lots of $$$)

One could make a lot of money doing this and it would be helping lots of people, too, not just those buying the house but those trying to sell the house, those investing in the flip, and the neighbors whose home value just went up simply by being in close proximity to the one you just fixed up.


Even though this article is probably right, who wouldn't want to get paid to drink wine all day long?

8. LE NEZ (a.k.a. a Perfumer)

To create perfume compositions all day long and then see my perfume in a commercial on TV or smell it on a passerby... what a life of a true artist.


I don't know if one could actually make a living doing this, but it would be grand fun anyway.


It would be REALLY COOL to be Taylor Swift a.k.a. the coolest and most talented pop star around.

10. SAHM (a.k.a. Stay @ Home Mom)

YES! Marry a man who has a good job and stay home and raise his babies. *Sigh* One of the hardest but most rewarding jobs there is.
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24 May 2015 @ 02:30 pm
"It gives me a deep comforting sense that things seen are temporal and things unseen are eternal."
-Helen Keller

"Every person's life is a fairy tale written by God's fingers."
- Hans Christian Andersen

"He is no fool who gives up what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose."
-Jim Elliot

"I trust that everything happens for a reason, even when we're not wise enough to see it."
-Oprah Winfrey

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
-Phillipians 4:13

"Let no one look down on your youthfulness, but rather in speech, conduct, love, faith, and purity, show yourself an example of those who believe."
-I Timothy 4:12

"But let beauty be the hidden person of the heart, with the imperishable quality of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is precious in the sight of God."
-I Peter 3:4

"Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far above rubies."
-Proverbs 31:10

"When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."
-When Harry Met Sally

"The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears."
-John Vance Cheney

"I went to a really boring wedding. It was a paint-by-number ceremony."
-Anna Cummings

"Your value and worth is not measured by what you do for God but what God has done in you!"

"That best portion of a good man's life, His little, nameless, unremembered acts of kindness and of love."
-William Wordsworth

"The Lord hath appeared of old unto me, saying, Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee."
-Jeremiah 31:3

"O give thanks unto the Lord, for He is good: for His mercy endureth for ever."
-Psalm 107:1

"O taste and see that the Lord is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in Him."
-Psalm 34:8

"For the Lord God is a sun and shield: the Lord will give grace and glory: no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly."
-Psalm 84:11

"And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not."
-Galatians 6:9

"If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him."
-James 1:5

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths."
-Proverbs 3:5-6

"Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
-Philippians 4:6-7
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03 January 2015 @ 07:48 pm
(In response to a picture of a woman and man arm wrestling with the caption: Feminism says, "Compete with him, God says complete Him.")

Nowhere in the Bible does it say a woman "completes" man. In fact, Colossians 2:10 actually says, "You are complete through your union with Christ, who is the head over every ruler and authority." CHRIST is the One who completes us. Yes, Genesis does say it is not good for man to be alone... so God made a helper suitable for him. She is his equal... equal in value in the eyes of the Lord and they are to serve one another humbly in love. (Galatians 5:13) And the wife is to submit to her husband as he submits to Christ. I will never, ever get married unless the man I marry is completely surrendered to the will of God and doesn't want to break His heart. I would have absolutely no problem submitting to a man who submits to Christ because if he's yielded to Him... that means I'm getting an awesome deal!!!! I don't really consider myself feminist (even though I am pro-equality of the sexes) but I'm not entitlement-minded or man-hating, which is the bum rap that feminists have earned, as well as ignoring important factors when reporting statistics... and I'd rather not be associated with those few radical individuals who give feminism a bad name. Feminism, in theory, is a beautiful thing. It helped give women the right to vote and own property and hold down a steady job which is important for women like me whose husbands stopped following Jesus and abandoned their wives. So let's say for the intents and purposes of this comment that I'm pro-equality of the sexes. I believe a woman who is seeking to obey God and walks in love has equal access to all spiritual blessings in Christ. “There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female, for you are all one in Christ Jesus” (Galatians 3:28). I did not like this status but don't get me wrong, someday I look forward to submitting to the headship of a godly man who puts Christ first in his life and me second. My ex abused the leadership Christ gave him and my marriage was quite literally hell on earth. One must be very careful with putting down "feminism." Not all feminists are crazy liberal psychos. Like I said, because of a few bad apples, feminism has earned a bad reputation, but at it's core, it seeks to remind us that in God's eyes, we are equal partakers of His holiness and joint heirs of His kingdom. Without the hard work of women who have gone before me, my life would be a whole lot harder and a look a lot different today. I am thankful I have the rights and privileges that allow me to continue being self sufficient and independent. I praise the Lord I did not live before 1850 when women were put into the same category as lunatics, idiots, outlaws and children.
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03 January 2015 @ 05:17 pm

Bright Rainbow


Dirty Green I

Dirty Green II
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03 January 2015 @ 11:40 am

I have been wanting to write my thoughts on this topic for some time now... it was just never really appropriate for me to be thinking about "other men" when I was still technically married. Now that I've got the BIG D ball rolling, I think it's acceptable for me to be keeping my eyes open with what God might bring my way.

First of all, I should caveat this entry with the fact that I believe God is fully capable and desires good things for my life. That being said, I don't know why the prospect of being single forever still scares me, but it does. If God wants me to get re-married, He'll bring the right one into my life at the right time. I do not need to worry that every single last one of the good Christian men I've ever known in my life are all married. That doesn't matter. God could still bring someone into my life somehow if it's His will. I just need to trust His provision. So why am I still concerned?

Maybe because the statistics aren't looking too much in my favor... and yes, God can work miracles, but He doesn't mess with free will. The man who was supposed to be my "soul mate" turned his back on God and abandoned me. He was abusive, deceptive, unfaithful, and a terrible provider. God could have turned my husband's life around, but He doesn't work like that. I waited for two years for my husband to come around but at this point, my biological clock is ticking and my cold and empty bed cries out for some warmth while my husband is still doing drugs, still has no plan or desire to find a job, and is still and living in an old rank trailer on his grandpa's farm. I don't think it's wrong to "fold" and be dealt a new hand.

Let's discuss the "meat market." Nevermind that I've never actually met a good Christian man between the ages of 25-34 who isn't already married... according to some surveys I've looked into, they are definitely out there, I just don't know where. One report puts the number of "marriageable men" (that is, never having married, no children yet, & has gainful employment) at 152 marriageable men for every 100 marriageable women source). According to this study, there are more than enough good men to go around. But the study doesn't measure faith as a factor. If you go to any church, I guarentee you that most of the pews have butts in them that belong to single women. At my church, the majority of the people who attend are single women. There aren't any single men at all... and even a couple married women members attend without their husbands. A recent study put the number at 25% of married women who attend church without their husbands in tow (source). This same source claims that a typical congregation in the U.S. is 61% female and only 39% male. The participants in activities during the middle of the week are attended by an overwhelming 70-80% of females. I have some friends in their early 40s who finally found each other and tied the knot this past October. I have an uncle who tied the knot recently in his 40s as well... and he had to find my aunt online... and she lived in another state. Why is it taking this long for people to find their "helper suitable?"

These days it’s hard to find a man who puts Jesus first. Why!? Where have all the good men gone? What is the reason for men’s spiritual lethargy? Is there anything we can do about it?

In 2014, I befriended a man who was 180 degrees away from what my husband was. It was refreshing to be treated like a queen instead of pond scum. I enjoyed being around this individual and thought maybe someday in the future we could be more than friends. Unfortunately, the more I got to know him, the more I realized he was only Christian in title and wasn't really interested in spiritual growth. He made no attempt to talk to his boss about getting Sundays off so he could worship with me at church. He was in the middle of reading the Bible faithfully when I first met him but then he got stuck in Leviticus and Numbers a couple months later and gave up out of sheer boredom. He's a loner. He rarely likes to get out and do fun things. His idea of "fun" is sleeping in. When asked if he had a vision for his future, he said he didn't really know. "Okay then," I said. "Well, if money were no object, then what would you like to do RIGHT NOW?" He paused for a moment. "Money really is no object actually. I have two months of expenses paid off in advance and over $4,000 in my checking account. If I wanted to take a month off a work and hang out in the Bahamas I could. But if I could do anything right now? Sleep." When asked who he would like to marry, he answered, "As long as she loves me, it doesn't matter if she's not a Christian." That's what REALLY opened my eyes to the man he truly was. Plus he doesn't like to discuss his feelings with me. He has no problem telling me he had a horrible day or that he is in a bad mood but he doesn't want to share why. He is silent on his deepest needs. How can I know how to ease his burden? How can I have greater intimacy with him if he doesn't even talk about what's bothering him? I give up. I guess I just need someone who's more intentional. Someone who has dreams for the future other than waking up, going to work, and coming home. Someone who wants to enjoy life with me. There are so many things I love about this man....
he's competent and independent i.e. he's not one of those clingy guys who needs a woman to validate him or take care of him. He's a provider at his core. Whenever I needed something, I didn't even have to ask, he's just happy to help me out. He's punctual and even comes early on the rare occasions we set appointments and go out together.

If I keep doing what I'm doing (waiting for a guy to come along) I have a feeling I'm going to experience a lot of the same thing... waiting for a guy to come along. Where is one supposed to meet godly men? Well, I could have met a godly man at a Christian University. Been there, done that, got the T-shirt literally. I wasn't there to find a man and now I regret that I didn't meet more guys there and stay in touch. I'm sure SOME of them are still single but not a single one on my facebook friend list is. I could always switch churches and hope that I'll find someone at another church... but I REALLY love my church and when you find a good church, you don't leave.

This is really frustrating. Can I get an amen? I know I'm not alone here.

Not a big fan of Mark Driscoll, but this is his take on why churches are seriously lacking strong, courageous, passionate, dependable men.

Interview with Mark Driscoll — Segment 1 from David Murrow on Vimeo.

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31 December 2014 @ 11:43 am
And the tradition continues!
2014 Survey

1) Was 2014 a good year for you?
It was a pretty good year actually :-)

2) What was your favorite moment of the year?
*My sister getting married
*Buying my car
*Being a houseparent at the orphanage

3) What was your least favorite moment of the year?
*Going down to the courthouse to file the divorce papers

4) Where were you when 2014 began?
*I was sitting in a chair in my dining room talking to Chris on the phone who was spending New Years in Nashville

5) Who were you with?
All by myself. All by myself has been the story for the last four years or so. New Years Eve used to be one of my favorite holidays growing up but it sucks when you're all alone.

6) Where will you be when 2014 ends?
I will be at the orphanage

7) Who will you be with when 2014 ends?
With the orphans!

8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2014?
My New Years resolutions were to:
Buy a car: CHECK!
Make twice as much with Eskimo Kissez: CHECK!
Get a Master's Degree: I changed my mind
Go on Vacation: That's going to happen this year for sure
Finish my book: That's definitely going to happen this year
Read my Bible and pray every day
Make more money, even if that means I have to get two jobs

10) Did you fall in love in 2014?

11) If yes, with who?
I did love Chris, but I don't know if I "fell in love" with him.

12) If yes, do they know?
He knows I love him.

13) Are you still in love with him?

14) Do you regret it?

15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2014?
I was never officially together with anyone

16) Did you make any new friends in 2014?
Iain and Mercedes. Brandie was already my acquaintance but we got really close this year.

17) Who are your favorite new friends?
Iain, Brandie and Mercedes but all three moved away :-(

18) What was your favorite month of 2014?
February, June, September, & December

19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2014?
I hate that every year I say no to the question.

20) How many different states did you travel to in 2014?
Arizona, Colorado. Sad.

21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2014?
Two aunts and an uncle. A friend from college died but I wasn't particularly close to her.

22) Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Yes, many.

23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2014?
About Time, Divergent, God's Not Dead, Moms' Night Out, The Giver, The Hunger Games: Mockingjay - Part 1

24) What was your favorite song from 2014?
Uptown Funk by Bruno Mars, ALL THE SONGS by Ed Sheeran, Love Never Felt So Good and Slave to the Rhythm by Michael Jackson, Problem and Love Me Harder by Ariana Grande, Happy by Pharrell Williams, Blank Space and Shake it Off by Taylor Swift, Blame by Calvin Harris, A Sky Full of Stars by Coldplay, Counting Stars by OneRepublic, Great I Am by Phillips, Craig, and Dean, He Knows My Name by Francesca Battistelli, Every Good Thing by The Afters, Oceans (Where Feet May Fail)  by Hillsong UNITED, Just Say Jesus by 7eventh Time Down, He Is With Us and King of My Heart by Love & The Outcome. JJ Heller didn't write the songs in 2014 but she's my new obsession.

25) What was your favorite record from 2014?
Shatter Me by Lindsey Sterling and X by Ed Sheeran which I own the former

26) How many concerts did you see in 2014?
I think 1 and it was a blues concert.

27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2014? I will just say my favorite books instead!!!!
Divergent by Veronica Roth, Spirit of the Rainforest: A Yanomamo Shaman's Story by Mark Andrew Ritchie, Stuck on a Ferris Wheel: An Actor's Guide to Enjoying the Ride While Keeping Your Feet on the Ground by Abbie Cobb, The Other Boleyn Girl by Philippa Gregory The Pursuit of God by A. W. Tozer, To All the Boys I've Loved Before by Jenny Han

28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2014?

29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2014?

30) How many people did you sleep with in 2014?
Three, but nobody sexually. I love sleepovers with Rebecca and Mercedes! :-)

33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2014?
My husband is a big fat liar.

34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2014?
To my knowledge, I'm unaware. I'm sure I must have.

35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2014?

36) How much money did you spend in 2014?
A lot.

37) What was your proudest moment of 2014?
Becoming an independent woman... and when I got the job at the orphanage.

38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2014?
I don't know.

39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2014 and change something, what would it be?
I wouldn't have cried that day in June. I would have held my head high.

40) What are your plans for 2015?
*Finish writing my book and pursue publishing
*Try to read the Bible every single day and pray for my friends every night
*Go on vacation

My plans were TOTALLY different last year because I didn't know I'd have the job I do now. That changed everything! :-) Thank You, Lord, for such a good year.
♪.¸¸.*´¯`*.¸♥ ৡ.†.Dannielle.†.ৡ ♥¸.*´¯`*.¸¸.♪
30 December 2014 @ 12:22 am
I saw over 100 movies this year! These are the ones I saw for the first time this year. The bolded ones were my favorites. :-)

12 Dates Of Christmas
About Time
A Christmas Kiss
After Earth
Amber Alert

Big Hero 6
Christmas Angel
Dark Girls
Despicable Me 2
Ender's Game

Falling in Love
Girl Model
God's Not Dead
Grand Piano
Hans Brinker or the Silver Skates
Hansel and Gretel: Witch Hunters
Heaven Is for Real
Holiday in Handcuffs
Hope Springs
How I Live Now
How to Train Your Dragon 2
I'll Be Home for Christmas
I Escaped A Cult
If I Stay
Into the Woods
Jersey Boys
Left Behind (2014)
Legends of Oz: Dorothy's Return
Life of Pi
Maze Runner
Moms' Night Out
Monsters University
Mr. Nobody
Oxford Murders
Planes: Fire And Rescue
Ruby Sparks
Safe Haven
Scents and Sensibility
She's All That
Side Effects
Silver Linings Playbook
Sin City
Storm Rider
Strawberry Shortcake: The Sweet Dreams Movie
Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas
The Accidental Husband
The Amazing Spider-Man 2
The Black Balloon
The Book Thief
The Fault In Our Stars
The Giver
The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug
The Hunger Games: Mockingjay - Part 1
The Internship
The LEGO Movie
The Magic of Belle Isle
The Other Woman
The Purge
The Secret Life Of Walter Mitty
The Shunning
The Single Moms Club
The Sound Of Music Live!
The Wolverine
The World Before Her
Thor: The Dark World
Tiger Eyes
Two Lovers
What Maisie Knew
X-Men: Days of Future Past
X-Men Origins - Wolverine
Yes, Virginia

Here is a list of books I read this year, the bolded ones are my faves.

100 Love Sonnets by Pablo Neruda
Alanna: The First Adventure by Tamora Pierce (Song of the Lioness Series 1 of a Quartet)
Am I the One?: Clues to Finding and Becoming a Person Worth Marrying by James R. Lucas
Animal Dads by Sneed B. Collard III, Steve Jenkins
Bed-Knob and Broomstick by Mary Norton
Divergent by Veronica Roth
Divorce and Remarriage: Four Christian Views by H. Wayne House
Finding the Right One After Divorce: Avoiding the 13 Common Mistakes People Make in Remarriage by Edward M. Tauber
Happy Birthday, Moon by Frank Asch
Hope For the Separated: Wounded Marriages Can Be Healed by Dr. Gary Chapman
Into the Labyrinth by Roderick Townley
Left Behind: A Novel of the Earth's Last Days by Jerry B. Jenkins
Saving Your Second Marriage Before It Starts by Leslie Parrott
Skippyjon Jones in Mummy Trouble by Judy Schachner
Snow White: A Tale from the Brothers Grimm by Charles Santore
Spirit of the Rainforest: A Yanomamo Shaman's Story by Mark Andrew Ritchie
Stop Pretending: What Happened When My Big Sister Went Crazy by Sonya Sones
Stuck on a Ferris Wheel: An Actor's Guide to Enjoying the Ride While Keeping Your Feet on the Ground by Abbie Cobb
The Blue Fairy Book by Andrew Lang
The Blue Shoe: A Tale of Thievery, Villainy, Sorcery, and Shoes by Roderick Townley
The Maze Runner by James Dashner
The Other Boleyn Girl by Philippa Gregory
The Pursuit of God by A. W. Tozer

The Virago Book of Erotic Myths and Legends by Shahrukh Husain
To All the Boys I've Loved Before by Jenny Han
Unraveling: Hanging On to Faith Through the End of a Christian Marriage by Elisabeth K. Corcoran
World Split Open by Elisabeth Klein
♪.¸¸.*´¯`*.¸♥ ৡ.†.Dannielle.†.ৡ ♥¸.*´¯`*.¸¸.♪
27 December 2014 @ 11:14 pm
Your dating personality profile:

Religious - Faith matters to you. It is the foundation that you build your life upon. You trust that God has a plan for you.
Conservative - You take a conservative stance on most issues and aren't shy about saying so. Your political views are an important component of who you are.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Your Top Ten Traits

1. Religious
2. Conservative
3. Big-Hearted
4. Athletic
5. Traditional
6. Intellectual
7. Romantic
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Adventurous
10. Sensual
Your date match profile:

Conservative - Forget liberals, you need a conservative match. Political discussions interest you, and a conservative will offer the viewpoint you need.
Religious - You seek someone who is grounded in faith and who possesses religious values. You believe that a religious person can enhance your life.
Traditional - You need someone who is a bit old-fashioned. A person with traditional values and beliefs will perfectly compliment your lifestyle.
Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Conservative
2. Religious
3. Traditional
4. Athletic
5. Romantic
6. Big-Hearted
7. Outgoing
8. Intellectual
9. Adventurous
10. Practical

Take the Dating Profile Quiz at Would I Date You
♪.¸¸.*´¯`*.¸♥ ৡ.†.Dannielle.†.ৡ ♥¸.*´¯`*.¸¸.♪
08 November 2014 @ 06:00 pm

Went car shopping again today. I have been car shopping for about six months now and I want to buy the perfect car for me... one that I can afford and one that will last me a long time with minimum upkeep. I've heard Hondas and Toyotas are the most cost effective in the long run and require the least amount of maintenance and upkeep. And so, here is a red Honda Civic 2005 EX that I looked at today. It is in my price range but I didn't give them the money yet... I'm waiting the weekend to make up my mind. I REALLY need a car. I mean, I guess I don't need a car, I just want a car... but having a car opens up so much more job opportunities to me and helps me hang out with friends more and helps me avoid daily sexual harassment on the bus, and also helps me avoid having to ask for rides all the time when the bus isn't running at certain times. I am SO THANKFUL to God for blessing me with the job I have and for giving me the means to afford a car. I pray He will guide and direct me in the way I should go with this vehicle.
♪.¸¸.*´¯`*.¸♥ ৡ.†.Dannielle.†.ৡ ♥¸.*´¯`*.¸¸.♪
06 November 2014 @ 11:56 pm

Made this today for funzies